The Modern Woman's Worrying Woes

I've said it before. I'll say it again. It's tough being a modern woman. Female liberation and emancipation can no longer be used as the panacea to advance personal development and fulfillment. It's a lonely existence, where practicality wins you no favours and even lesser warmth at night (luckily I have a pocket size version who fits comfortable between my elbow and knee!) ... but still, few favours and no warmth.
Case in point. Have been ferrying people around the last couple of days. Agreed, of my own decision, initiating from a desire to stay at home...but all the same; lots of ferrying. I got me a license. Driving, that is. And having got it, am mandated to drive. Liberation biting me in the butt. Suddenly I see wisdom in myopia! :)
Case in point II: Shahid missed his flight home from Riyadh. Now ordinarily I wouldn't have been so fussy (putting aside the whole loneliness argument for a bit), but at this point in the game, I could have done with another pair of hands. Except, I swallowed the Practicality Pill and said, cest la vie; see you tomorrow. I'll manage.

Nights have been long the last few days. I think one of the upper teeth is descending. Am struggling with sleep deprivation through the night and physical exhausting through the day. But in the face of functionality and general, yes, you guessed it, practicality, can't throw the proverbial female temper tantrum. There are a few who I envy the tears and tantrum as catharsis. I'm of the bottlers. Slow and steady build up, till a full blown eruption. I'll follow the Iceland route!

There is also that darned situation back in Pakistan. But that is for another post. Too much angst for that one...and too little concentration power.

For now then dear friend, good night and good luck.

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